This is going to be a whiny post...just a warning. Maybe this is just more of a vent. There are no pretty pictures to add to this post. Just complaints. I hate money. I hate dealing with money. I hate not having money. I know I should be grateful for what I have, but lately I have been wanting to "keep up with the Jones'". I want to re-do our bathrooms which are literally falling apart. I want to renovate our kitchen. I want a house with a freaking garage! I want to go on a 'real' vacation. I want to not live month to month. There's nobody to blame but ourselves though. Could I have bought an older car? yes. Could Ryan have kept his old car instead of buying a brand new one? yes. Could I have stopped shopping on Zulily EVERY day? Yes. Could we have watched our spending much more carefully? yes. Could Ryan have not registered for 2 expensive Ironman events this year? Yes. Could I stop getting allergy shots? Yes. Could we get rid of our gym membership? yes. Could Ryan stop going to physical therapy for his foot and shoulder? yes. Could I have not taken Luca to get food allergy testing? yes. Could I have let the fillings that needed to be replaced in my teeth wait a little longer? Yes. Could I have lived without a new retainer since I recently broke my old one? Yes (but my teeth would have moved). Could I have not gone on girls trips each year which I always end up putting on credit cards? yes. Could I spend less at the grocery store? yes.
I'm sure there is more that I can't think of in this moment. I am just frustrated with a lot of things right now. Ryan's business is up in the air and he hates going to work every day, and our kids have been acting so bad that we don't like being parents. I know it will all pass and we will look back on these days and maybe crack a little smile...I am just ready to be at that point right now. Okay, vent over. :)
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